The girl with Curves

If you've ever seen a picture of me, you might have noticed two things about about me. I call them thing one and thing two - my big 'ol honkin' boobs. These giantic monsters have been with me since I was in late elem school/early middle school. Yes, they're 100% real and mostly exist due to the genetics on both sides of my family.

Now, why do I start this post talking about my breasts? Well I've been thinking a lot about my physical appearance recently, specifically after the new year. One of the things I promised myself (after promising to follow these resolutions since I broke the 5 year resolution of not making resolutions) was that was I was going to take better care of my physical self this year.

Now, I'm not talking about trying to mold myself into any kind of creepy-skinny-never-eats-enough kinda girl. Just treating my body better and doing things to take care of it. So I've started small so I can make sure I'll build upon this goal. I've continued with something I'd started a while back - portion control - and tried to throw in some more health consious foods. I also have continued the tradition of not denying myself things I'm craving. I won't gorge myself on any of it but I will eat what my body wants within reason.

Recently I've started walking. This trend didn't start as a I have to get healthy sorta craze. It actually started the night I talked about in my last posting. After that however I've come to enjoy a daily walk whenever I can get it in. I'm pretty successful at it Sun-Thurs. I just put my iPod on shuffle and walk around untill my body decides I've walked enough for the day (this usually hit after about an hour of walking around).

These walks have been very cleansing for days where I have a lot swirling through my mind. By the time I get home I feel a little lighter than I did when I left in terms of everything on my mind.

One of the things that has been on my mind recently is my body shape. I'm very proportionally built. This is one good thing I can say about myself. I'm fairly thick all around but it doesn't seem as much because I'm big 'ol damn boobs. However, even knowing I'm not built in a funky manner, I've always though of myself as fat. Always. Disgusting body image really. It really took me a long time to ever look in the mirror and like or at least be comfortable with what I saw there. It's gotten much better recently. Predominatly more so since I've been working on being better to myself. In that I've recently decided something: Yes, I'm going to continue walking and will eventually make it to the gym. However, this is not going to be an extremist I have to lose weight sort of idea. I just want my body to be and feel healthier. Orginally I had a weight goal in mind when I set this resolution to be better to myself, but I realized when I had the revelation about wanting to be healthier that at the end of the day if I met that weight goal I'd miss my curves and my figure. Yeah it's going to change some in the process of getting healthy, but I've always been a curvy girl and I realized I don't want that to change.

So, to my knockers and the body that is proportion to them - here's a healthier outlook on us. Cheers.

You cannot escape the results of your thoughts. Whatever your present environment may be, you will fall, remain or rise with your thoughts, your vision, your ideal. You will become as small as your controlling desire; as great as your dominant aspiration. - James Allen